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ajax88 37, Female, DC, Washington, USA - 23 entries

Mar 2010
9:26 AM CST

Ashes

Look at all the lonely hearts

Shivering out in the dark

Hiding from the Truth

Cover up the proof

�

Demons that I've tried to hide�

Imprison me in my own lies

And all that I can do is

� cover up the proof

�

Secrets got me torn apart

Trying to destroy my heart

But I can't see the light

All that's cutting through me

Now�is night.

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athiera 30, Female, Malaysia - 9 entries

Mar 2010
4:40 AM EDT

long time

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vampiricakatt 30, Female, Minnesota, USA - 102 entries

Mar 2010
9:24 PM EDT

at friends house someone please text me at 612 816 3713

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Mario 55, Male, Connecticut, USA - 27 entries

Mar 2010
4:27 PM EDT

Poets are not a forgotten breed !

A poet looks on intently at our world through a very delicate but brightened lense/

Does all of their wishes that they aspire come true ?
Well !
It all depends ?
Yet through delicate eyes we derive a solemn surprise/
For some maybe that grace has not fallen on them/
I don't think as a poet as a liar per say/
Rather, someone who connects with that half of the brain/
Whereby the part that no one bothers to tap into/
Although for now though faintly/
Yet what one does today will forever be echoed throughout all of eternity !
Poetry !
Hits on many aspects of life, relationships and material aspects/
There can be no real substitute for the real you !
Hence, it's all based primarily on choces,
For the materialization of the given subject matter to work/
Hence, to still know what's true for you
May not be for someone else ?
Lastly, a true poet never dies !
Rather, lives on in the many hearts of their adoring fans !
The challenge to be set free is a question of time !

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Mario 55, Male, Connecticut, USA - 27 entries

Mar 2010
4:09 PM EDT

The Air That I Breath/ Conciousness/ Freedom

This darkened world in sin/ Doesn't appreciate why we exist; In fact it's the in tuned harmony to the hiiden beasts reality/ Like a fresh though- Out of the Autumn air, We oft' lose touch of our wandering existence/ Typical nomads with no sense of guidance/ We bitch , we pout, we grive/ Yet for example: Such as Moses was who had led the children of Isreal/ We only exist here for such a short time/ Hence, when his children complained the Lord sought to it to feed them manna, When the children grumbled and whined, He provided water for them to drink/ God doesn't need us, rather we need him/ There is no need to run away by which to complain and vent ! Rather be happy for the air you breath/ The sun to keep you warm, For conciousness intact to heighten your day/ Rejoice in the freedom that many there be take for granted/ Freedom's in which our for fathers fought to so desperately preserve !

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charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Mar 2010
3:40 AM MST

ici

CitEScapE CitEScapE The semi-permanent landscape of anytown USA anytown anytime anywhen anywhere you look to the right of the roadaway is the rightofway is what they call that; on the left just a little past the roadway is the barren space in every city has them. There is what is called the other side of the tracks is over there past the roadway now on the right side looking back out over that expanse there is usually a house there past that rightofway. The house has a barren yard a porch of empty and the sidewalk makes a tee up to that paintless door. No one comes near to the visit no one is ever there home. No lights at night are visible corner has no shelter from the storm. Inside the foyer is mold and mildew extrapolated ferns out of control growing up both flights of staires pushing up out of the windows now and then coming up out of the basement roots in cellar starting there. Iff you could yank away the ferns the whole house just would collapse the walls pancaking near the kitchen sealing all them shuts away. Hangging by a large knotted rope to replace the hangging by a thread or sealed upside down with tape. Them ferns reiterate. A fortress of tension near the rear of the portico a courtyard of drear. This roadway turns one way each way on every CitEScapE.

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Imperfection 31, Female, New York, USA - 2 entries

Mar 2010
2:49 PM EDT

Nothing.

Dear Journal,

� It's been 2 days since mike died..The pain has worn out a little bit but, now�all i feel is emptyness and nothing. The hurt has gone away and now transformed into nothing. My body feels numb and i feel so weird. I know i shouldnt be mad at him but, i am so upset. I may not feel it now, but i know that inside im hurt and angry at him for causing me this much pain. Knowing hes gone is just so hard to put into my head i feel as if hes somehow here with us but, i know hes not. Today, was absolutely horrible. As i walked into school i realized i would never see him again. I kept looking back in the hallways to see if he was there but that was just be being insane. I walked into my fourth period class and my friend came in hysterical and my other friend was crying too. I wondered why i didnt cry? I guess i dont feel the pain anymore. I would rather feel nothing then pain. I've always been emotionless, but this has triggered me to become more emotionless. I was looking at his screename last night and the last away message i saw was 'getting my jewberry, i love my twinsieeeeeee' God, how i remember him so well. My friend found a video of him and i on her phone and she showed me and i had to look away, i need to forget everything. Im afraid but i dont know why? I guess that things like this always happen. Know i feel as if im afraid to get close to someone to avoid the pain of when theyre gone forever. Not being able to hug someone you care about deeply is just..horrible. The pain is seeping into my chest but i need to stop. The world will change one day, but not in my lifetime. I know that for a fact.

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keonyama96 31, Female, Kansas, USA - 191 entries

Mar 2010
7:08 PM EDT

Band clinic was yesterday and my bro and I where in da newspaper wit a bunch of other ppl

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Imperfection 31, Female, New York, USA - 2 entries

Mar 2010
12:33 PM EDT

Death?

Dear Journal,

�Yesterday, my friend mike died..Oh god its so hard for me to write this because i thought i would never say it ever in my life..He commited suicide. This hurts so bad the pain is like a huge truck bashing you 100 times. Theres like a hole in my chest and he was my friend. Its weird you know? Knowing that you will never see someone ever again? Their linger and smell, their smile, and the way they joked. It stays in your mind forever. I wish i had a neetle that could give me amnesia and take away the pain. I used to help him all the time, one time he called me at 2 in the morning so i could comfort him. It hurts to know i will never hear his voice again and to see him smiling. The way he used to play around with me and laugh at me. I feel so guilty because when he needed me most i wasnt there. His girlfriend cheated on him..He said that he was fine when i shouldve known he wasnt. I met him in the summer and ever since then we became close. Its so unreal how you could lose someone in a matter of seconds. I hope that this sadness and pain thats overwhelming me right now will go away..I will never forget him and today i went by the traintracks and dropped a flower down where the remainder of his blood was. Life is so cruel, i wish that everyone was happy and we could all live in harmony but, i know that will never happen ever. The world is filled with hate and pain all day everyday. I cant talk to people, the tears just come back. After everything i went through last year this really wow. i would do last year 142353476 times over to save mikes life. I have a picture of him in my phone that i set as his caller i.d and looking at it today i just couldnt believe my eyes. Mourning was everywhere as i walked into fourth period late, i saw all of the guidance counselours standing and talking.�I stood there looking at his seat and i tried so hard to prevent the tears from coming out but, i couldnt. Half the class was already hysterical i just i feel so sad..I miss him and if i could do anything to bring him back or at least say goodbye to him i would do anything. When i dream i hope hes there smiling at me. Oh god, it hurts. These uncontrollable tears keep pouring out and i just cant find myself to accept hes gone. I just wish it was a joke and he was kidding!! But no, its not and that just kills me. Im wearing his ring right now, on a chain around my neck. I remember when he gave it to me, oh no he actually threw it at me and he told me it was a christmas present. When i saw his girlfriend wearing his hat and wrist band i wish that it was him. I wanted to smell it and remember him. Another memory that pops up is when i dated victor and he picked me up and he by accident cut my leg. I wish i was a fortune teller, i would've saved him in a heart beat. Oh god, please send mike into heaven so, when my life is done i could rejoin with him. I dont know how much i can take before i crack. I wish i was a little girl again, oh those great days when i didnt even know what death was.

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MrsOakley 38, Female, Nevada, USA - 36 entries

Mar 2010
8:18 AM CST

My Fiancee and I Have Finally Picked The Date For Our Wedding...July 10th, 2010...We'll Being Having It In His Home Town...For One His Family Is Larger And Mine Are Willing To Drive To Be Apart Of The Celebration...Two Decorah Is Absolutely Beautiful For A Wedding...

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